7:32pm, 29th January 2020
This is an awards post. This is not an awards post.
I've been putting this off for ages (I'm what, two months past everyone else?) because I don't know how to write it. But maybe I just need to write it and accept that it will be as messy and tangled as my thoughts on the subject.
Here is the lede unburied: I am not putting myself forward for awards consideration any more.
Though I'm not going to decline nominations, or be displeased in the slightest, or stop rounding up what I achieved in a year.
Messy and tangled.